Merciless


I stagger for shivers.Hunted by grief; madness grows in me thus.A torment still coming back, I can do nothing.It wrests my body, in the coldness.How many times, how many times have I been afraid?

I stagger for shivers.Hunted by grief; madness grows in me thus.A torment still coming back, I can do nothing.It wrests my body, in the coldness.How many times, how many times have I been afraid?
I stagger for shivers.
Hunted by grief; madness grows in me thus.
A torment still coming back, I can do nothing.
It wrests my body, in the coldness.
How many times, how many times have I been afraid?

(Source: ma-jenka)


My heart beats fast. I dont know if it because I am exctd for christmas or scare to go on duty or nervous about the result of our interview and this plushie is the result of it. I still feel this uneasines and planing to draw next hohoho .gambatte to me . Gambatte to me hiha! Aja! View Larger

My heart beats fast. I dont know if it because I am exctd for christmas or scare to go on duty or nervous about the result of our interview and this plushie is the result of it. I still feel this uneasines and planing to draw next hohoho .gambatte to me . Gambatte to me hiha! Aja!


spiraphobia:

GOING TO ANOTHER WORLD THROUGH AN ELEVATOR (+ some tips on how to return)
Find a 10+ story building and go in the elevator alone. 
While on the elevator, press 4.
When you reach the 4th floor, press 2.
When you reach 2nd floor, press 6.
When you reach 6th floor, press 2.
When you reach 2nd floor, press 10.
When you reach 10th floor, press 5.
When you reach the 5th floor, a girl will come in. That girl is not human. Don’t talk or look at her.
Press 1 - but if the elevator starts going up to the 10th floor instead, then you have succeeded. You have reached another world where there is no one except you.
If you get off at the 10th floor, the girl will ask, “Where are you going?” But don’t answer her.
How to return to the real world:
If the girl doesn’t get on the 5th floor.
If you don’t get off at the 10th floor.
If you don’t get off at the 10th floor, then press 1. If it doesn’t work, keep on pressing until it does.
How to return if you get off:
You must use the same elevator to go back.
Do the 4-2-6-2-10-5 combo again.
After you reach the 5th floor, press 1.
As you’re going up to the 10th floor, press some other number to cancel.
After you reach the 1st floor, check your surroundings.
Also, if you were to faint in the process while trying to go back and wake up to find yourself in your own house, there’s a high possibility that you’ll be taken back to the other world again.
What the other world looks like:
The surroundings look the same - but all the lights are off and you can only see a red cross in the distance.
There are no signs of the living there except yourself.
Some say electronics (cellphone, camera, etc.) don’t work while some say they do.
Some say that getting back to the real world is harder for some reason. You get disorientated and forget the elevator you came on or somehow, the elevator seems to get further and further away as you walk towards it.

spiraphobia:

GOING TO ANOTHER WORLD THROUGH AN ELEVATOR (+ some tips on how to return)

  • Find a 10+ story building and go in the elevator alone
  • While on the elevator, press 4.
  • When you reach the 4th floor, press 2.
  • When you reach 2nd floor, press 6.
  • When you reach 6th floor, press 2.
  • When you reach 2nd floor, press 10.
  • When you reach 10th floor, press 5.
  • When you reach the 5th floor, a girl will come in. That girl is not human. Don’t talk or look at her.
  • Press 1 - but if the elevator starts going up to the 10th floor instead, then you have succeeded. You have reached another world where there is no one except you.
  • If you get off at the 10th floor, the girl will ask, “Where are you going?” But don’t answer her.

How to return to the real world:

  • If the girl doesn’t get on the 5th floor.
  • If you don’t get off at the 10th floor.
  • If you don’t get off at the 10th floor, then press 1. If it doesn’t work, keep on pressing until it does.

How to return if you get off:

  • You must use the same elevator to go back.
  • Do the 4-2-6-2-10-5 combo again.
  • After you reach the 5th floor, press 1.
  • As you’re going up to the 10th floor, press some other number to cancel.
  • After you reach the 1st floor, check your surroundings.

Also, if you were to faint in the process while trying to go back and wake up to find yourself in your own house, there’s a high possibility that you’ll be taken back to the other world again.

What the other world looks like:

  • The surroundings look the same - but all the lights are off and you can only see a red cross in the distance.
  • There are no signs of the living there except yourself.
  • Some say electronics (cellphone, camera, etc.) don’t work while some say they do.
  • Some say that getting back to the real world is harder for some reason. You get disorientated and forget the elevator you came on or somehow, the elevator seems to get further and further away as you walk towards it.

Afternoon shift super blessed with food day. nagmeeting yung ER staff after the meeting kainan.syempre pancit with sluce bread. coke and sprite at ube roll cak pa yummmmm. tapos panghaponan.ko pa nilaga ayus kaso malamig na yung sabaw. with juice and cake pa hahahaha ayusss. tapos meron pang bumili ng mak ayusss. tapos nakahitch pa sa car pauwi ayus. hahaha tapos paguwi ko my icecream at mangoflute pa yummmei… thank you everyone. God. Ma. and happy birthday 18th bday again ate cherry View Larger

Afternoon shift super blessed with food day. nagmeeting yung ER staff after the meeting kainan.syempre pancit with sluce bread. coke and sprite at ube roll cak pa yummmmm. tapos panghaponan.ko pa nilaga ayus kaso malamig na yung sabaw. with juice and cake pa hahahaha ayusss. tapos meron pang bumili ng mak ayusss. tapos nakahitch pa sa car pauwi ayus. hahaha tapos paguwi ko my icecream at mangoflute pa yummmei… thank you everyone. God. Ma. and happy birthday 18th bday again ate cherry


8/26/13 (9:40 pm)
> I have gone to my friends boarding house to pick her up for night duty. While waiting for her at the living room, I’m having a thought about my mistakes in charting. and keep on asking myself “Will I be able to keep things up as what it is now?,”, ” Will I be able to survive & keep working to improve myself working at a hospital?”.  Then one of her boardmates throw me something a cookie originally came and made from JAPAN!. I was like OMG!!. this is a sign to remind me that I still have dreams to fullfill one of that big dreams is to go to JApan someday. I guess I have to work harder and keep going then is only the beginning ^_^// thanks to that cookie wew I’m save.. Than you LORd,. View Larger

8/26/13 (9:40 pm)

> I have gone to my friends boarding house to pick her up for night duty. While waiting for her at the living room, I’m having a thought about my mistakes in charting. and keep on asking myself “Will I be able to keep things up as what it is now?,”, ” Will I be able to survive & keep working to improve myself working at a hospital?”.  Then one of her boardmates throw me something a cookie originally came and made from JAPAN!. I was like OMG!!. this is a sign to remind me that I still have dreams to fullfill one of that big dreams is to go to JApan someday. I guess I have to work harder and keep going then is only the beginning ^_^// thanks to that cookie wew I’m save.. Than you LORd,.


today is totally one of the amazing day having a duty at ward,
Sa totoo lang takot aku pumasok lalo na sa 3rd floor ward kasi geberal ward , maraming monitoring, toxic sabi panga, pero I startedbto set my mind that tonorrow will be more exciting and fun at ward.
At first I thought di dadating mga senior ko natatakot na ko isa lang ksai akong snet , buti nalang at dumating silang dalawa meron pang nawala sa schedule panghapon sana sya akala nya morning sya kaya pumunta sya ng maaga, yun di na piba.uwi bali tatlo na senior ko then merong enendorse na bagong senior staff dalawa . So cool. Bali anim na kami lahat sa ward. Kinabahan aku lalo kasi sabi ng head nurse namin ichart ko lahat waaaaaaat??? 15 pa nman sensus namen super d ko alam gagawin ko meron pang for OR dalawa nyak pero kahit ganun d nman aku nakaramdam maxado ng pagud super cool lang. Meron naman akong isang senior na willing to back me up:-) . Then marami paring bloopers ay super parang hindi professional hahaha.. tapos ako rin pinapa endorse ..nyaaah kabug nanaman yung dibdib hahahays. Pinagtawanan pako kasi imbes n “not febrile the whole shift” sabi ko hindi na fever. Tapos dinugtungan pa ng hindi na fecer cough na.. super tawa sila ok lang kubg natatawa lang sila o meron pa silang ibig ipaanu hahahays..
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Last na to for two days meron akong nakasabay na snet morning shiftnay super toxic kaloka.. yung tipong matatae ka sa katoxican nyah grrr… buti nalang at pasenyado akong tao kundi nilibing ko ng buhay yun:-)